Confessions of a Bad Girl Gone Good

I know I know the cliche is all wrong its suppose to be a Good Girl Gone Bad, but what if you started of as a bad girl like..hmm let's say ..Me!
You know how they say one bad apple spoils the bunch...well that's what happen to me one bad apple spoiled me and turned me into a good nature girl. i dunno what happened the wool was just pulled over my eyes and now i can't go back. though at this present time we are having our problems he is my one and only true love. Granted i have had a couple of loves in my 21 yrs.......25........okay 29 yrs labeling Al B. Sure and Micheal Jackson as 2 of those loves (hey hey the Micheal Jackson in those Off The Wall and Beat It days was fine), but its just something about this one that makes me go crazy.
Since day one i have been telling myself "play the game right and you will never fail." My mission was to get in and get out with out getting trapped, "let him love you but never alow yourself to love him back" and that was simply because before him i was dealing with all the wrong guys. You know how they say you get back what you dish out. Well i had to truly figure out what it was that i was dishing out because the guys i was getting all had problems. One was always in my face from sun up to sun down, one couldn't admit to himself let alone me that we were together and like a fool i was cool to sneak around, one claimed "i trust you its these niggas that i don't trust"(mind you he swiped me from another dude) that brings me too the drunken older man then there was the crazy Spanish dude to the loser baby daddy to the secretly married man. I guess its true what they say you have to hit the bottom in order to get back to the top. For the past 4 yrs i have been in a hectic but wonderful relationship with a good man. Yes ladies there are actually good men out there... don't go searching for mines though cause then i will have to cut you
when i meet dude i had so much playing the game in my blood because honestly "I'm a Pimp blood not Relation" that automatically that was my first intent when i started dealing with dude. i always tell him and others that in the beginning i wasnt all that serious but he started opening my eyes up to much much more and like an idiot i was to blind to see it long story short and 4 yrs later i am beginning to see what he has been babblin about all this time. I see things way differently now im not as mean sprited as i was before. not saying that i owe it all to that man but he has helped me alot and im writting this just to let him know that i appreciate all that he has done for me and all the love that he has shown me
and no the man is not Jesus or God though they are my homeboys and i put no men before them i am actually talking about a real man... not saying that they aren't real men i mean a more up to date man.....lol

love to see you smile
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